expectation

so its minimum day today. well i havent slept yet. and probably not gonna sleep. cause if i sleep i cant wake up.

lately i dont think i have been that happy. nothing big. just lil frustrating things happening here and there. well today is minimum day and im hoping today will be somewhat better than today.

i have a feeling that im kinda annoying these days. ive been expecting alot lately. and i shouldnt be expecting cause i should be happy with what there is and what will happen. i shouldnt need to have expectations cause i know i wont be disppaointed. but ive been having high expectations lately. which is very unlike me. cause i never have expectations. i usually just let what ever comes by comes by and pass. these expectations been making me frustrated and annoyed alot. cause nothings goin how i thought it would. i dont know where all these expectations came from. and their frustrating me. expectations arent bad, but i dont like them. i think ive been selfish these days and really pushing. well i need to get rid of my expectations once again. i need to go back to my old mentality where i expect the least and also be satisfied. but i dont need to expect the least either. cause my so-called expectations are never disappointed. expecting too much isnt good.

ive been pretty stupid these days. i dont know what ive been doing. nothing really thinking with what i do. i need to straighten up. i also need to lighten up. and just let everything just come by and not get jjajeungnah at everything. i should stop being so selfish and try to have everything my way.

no more selfishness
no more expectations
no more wants
lighten up
straighten up